2010-03-16 14:25:16 UTC
Today, we had to do these things yet again, for a half hour straight where you had to run in a line and the last people in line would sprint to the front and I started losing it after the first 45 seconds. The people in front of me were running way faster than me and I was slowing my group down. It's just really hard for me. The positive side is that I am really flexible and have good leg muscles and my legs never really burn of hurt, but they sometimes cramp along with my stomach. Also, my throat starts to hurt and feels stuffed up and my ears hurt and I begin to feel nauseous. I have only been doing this for 4 days, but today I was surprised at how long some people could run compared to me. I was the worst one and there were three other people who were kind of bad, and kept walking and getting talked to my the coach too, but I was definitely the worst, and we have a pretty big track team. Even most of the girls who didn't play sports were better than me.
Idk, it just seems like I'm so far behind and I just can't do it. I think I will majorly slow down the team and never be able to do it, or ever catch up. Each day, I get up and tell myself that I will run and make it, but I never can. The more you run, the better endurance you'll get, but I couldn't run long at all which isn't helping to build up my endurance much. I see the other kids running for a long time while tired and I know in my head they are getting better and better while leaving me behind. I don't know if I'll ever be able to do this or if I'll ever catch up.
Should I quit? Do you think I'll ever catch up or is or was anyone here in a similar position?